special poem...

"Portrait of a Friend"

I can't give solutions to all of life's problems, doubts, or fears.

But I can listen to you, and together we will search for answers.

I can't change your past with all it's heartache and pain,

nor the future with its untold stories.

But I can be there now when you need me to care.

I can't keep your feet from stumbling.

I can only offer my hand that you may grasp it and not fall.

Your joys, triumphs, successes, and happiness are not mine;

Yet I can share in your laughter.

Your decisions in life are not mine to make, nor to judge;

I can only support you, encourage you,

and help you when you ask.

I can't prevent you from falling away from friendship,

from your values, from me.

I can only pray for you, talk to you and wait for you.

I can't give you boundaries which I have determined for you,

But I can give you the room to change, room to grow,

room to be yourself.

I can't keep your heart from breaking and hurting,

But I can cry with you and help you pick up the pieces

and put them back in place.

I can't tell you who you are.

I can only love you and be your friend.

--Unknown--

I DON'T UNDERSTAND....

Entry kali ni I want to be a bit more serius....something about human that I don't understand that happens around us. There's a few things that most people don't understand why it happened to them. They will asked themself...'what did I do wrong that other people mess with me?'It's just a simple question, yet, no one can give the exact answer to the question.

1. I don't understand...how much is the value of friendship?
For me, the value of friendship is priceless...we can't buy our friendship in a shop or something. It is the gift that we should appreciate. Once we are friend...forever we are friend. But the thing that I don't understand is...why someone would break their friendship over some little silly things? Sbb hal yg org sekeliling rasa kecik jer...tp blh jd penyebab sebuah persahabatan yg dibina putus di tgh jln. Pdhal sblm things came up...slalu bersama...tp biler da jd bnda x elok...mula la mengata sana sini. Yg wat aku lg x phm...biler 1 pihak senyap jer...x wat apa2 pun...yg 1 lg mula la nk mencanang keburukan...mengata mcm2...perlu ke nk wat mcm tu? apa yg diorg dpt sebenarnyer?bkn ke itu menunjukkan betapa immatured dia tu? come on...we are grown up people...be like one. Jgn la childish sgt kn. Biler jd bnda x elok...susah la...lg2 biler org yg xtau apa2 lgsg citer dr awal...kn bg nama buruk jer. Dlm kes ni...org yg kena kutuk tu...ptut berdiam dr jer...lau lawan pun x guna...no point. Lau balas gak...jwbnyer huru hara la...silap2 blh bertumbuk...and that is the most last thing to happen on earth. I wonder...betapa murahnyer harga persahabatan pd org tu...masa org lain sgt2 perlukn kwn...yg jd pengubat suka duka...dia lak suka suki jer wat mcm tu. Aku tgk dia pun slalu sorg2...mcm xder kwn. Aku jd kesian kat dia...bkn sbb xder kwn...kesian sbb org mcm dia...yg org nmpk mcm sopan santun...rupanyer dangkal fikirannyer...nmpk matang...tp sgt childish. Rasanyer...dia xpyh ada kwn pun ok kot...sbb at the end...dia akan wat kwn dia sakit hati.

2. I don't understand...why people mess with us? We didn't do anything to them...
Ni satu lg sifat manusia yg aku x phm lgsg...biler pk2..hmm...hampeh jer org yg suka cari pasal nih. Org tu duk diam...x kacau dia pun...tp dia lak cari psl dgn org tu. Perlu ke wat smua tu? Mengata org yg xder kaitan lgsg...x phm la manusia mcm ni. Apa ek yg dia dpt biler cri psl mcm tu...mengata org yg x bersalah...yg xder apa2 kes pun dgn dia. I wonder...mcmner la org mcm ni...yg suka mess with other people...nk campur dgn org lain in the future. Lau org lain tau yg dia ni jnis mcm ni...org mmg xnk terlibat dgn dia...biaq pi dia hidup sorg2. Cari psl dgn org tu dah jd mcm satu keperluan hidup dia kot...mcm makan tido yg jd satu keperluan hidup manusia...mcm tu jugak la cari pasal dgn org tu da jd keperluan hidup dia. Maybe this type of people feel uncomfortable biler dia x cari pasal dgn org. Hmmm...x phm btl la. Bg aku...sbb suka cari pasal la dunia ni jd huru hara...mana taknyer...elok jer negara tu aman...tibe2...ada lak negara yg cri psl...g serang negara tuh...kn huru hara jdnyer...bkn ke tu namanyer negara yg menyerang tu sajer cari pasal...pelik2.

3. I don't understand...why people misused the network...
Ni pun bnda yg aku x phm...knp la org suka gunakan network yg ada kat dunia yg serba canggih ni utk wat bnda2 buruk. Question:what do they fet from it? Network yg ada tu sepatutnyer digunakn utk beneficial things...mcm sebarkn info berguna ke...tmbh kenalan ker...xpun reconnect dgn kawan yg da lama terpisah. Ni x...ada ke guna kemudahan teknologi tu utk mengutuk mengata...mengumpat mengeji org lain. Sgt tidak bertamadun org itu. Menampkkan betapa kurang berilmunyer manusia mcm ni...pdhal blaja tahap universiti. Bahasanyer pulak...sgt la kesat...yg org lain x jangka dtg dr seorang yg kelihatan sgt decent...sopan...bijak...pandai. Da la future teacher...malangnyer nasib bkl student dia besok. Network mcm Facebook cthnyer...kn dbina utk tambah kenalan...interact dgn org lain...dgn kwn2...tp knp la dia misused facebook tu utk kutuk2 org...sgt pndk akal...hmmm...manusia2

Above is just a few things that I don't understand why it happened. I will post many more entries about this topic in the future...just for my own reminder and others things that we should not do to live in peace...

exam is just around the corner....

huhuhu...rasa mcm bru jer msuk sem 5...sedar x sedar da nk msuk final exam....NEXT WEEK. Waaaaa....rasa agak tertekan sbb aku rasa mcm x sedia lgsg...aduyai...xtau nk baca apa.
Lau psl psiko & sosiolinguistic tu ada la note...tp utk paper malaysian lit. nih....aku xtau nk baca apa...humpy dumpty x bg notes lgsg...dia membebel kat depan...kitorg yg pening kpla kat dlm class tu...aduyai. Exam aku lak dekat2 jer...3,4,9,10,12...yg 4hb tu LSP401...blh la wat rilek jer...yg 9hb dgn 10hb tu yg killer paper...pening2...just hope I can get through my final exam succesfully....mak...pray for adik yer...

jamuan raya CG yg best....huhuhu

yippi....syok giler jamuan raya CG. Really2 happening...smua enjoy...makanan sedap2...nasi impit...kuah kacang...soto...rendang yg umph...nasi hujan...ayam congo...roti jala...best2. Jamuan raya CG mmg meriah...dgn persembahan exco2 MPD...lagu hindustan la...lagu siam...lagu raya...hahaha...mcm2. Ada gak pemenang putera of the night...ewan yg dpt gelaran tu...and puteri of the night lak linda...tahniah2. Lps jamuan kitorg kmas cafe rmai2...yerla...xkn nk biarkn jer kn...huhuhu. Lps tu kitorg mkn utk 2nd round...gmbr2 kat bwh ni cukup utk menggambarkn suasana jamuan raya tuh...hehehe

gmbr kat bwh ni plak suasana masa kitorg wat preparation utk jamuan...

idea....

funny...hahaha...why?because I feel like I want to write something right now...but...I really don't have any idea to write about what...my mind is sort of blank...ideas...where are you guys. My situation makes me wondering...how an author or a poet can make such a great work? didn't they feels like clueless sometimes? didn't know what to write...and what did they do to overcome this barriers? how they can be so inspirational...inspired people who read their great works? How did they find the idea to write something great? [blank]

bengkel exco2 mpd at bukit merah...

huhuhu...da lama seyh aku x update blog...sibuk la...(layan facebook jer)...ahaks. Ni pun luangkn skit masa nk update blog aku yg x seberapa nih...hehehe. Miss my blog so much la...

Last Sunday...sebahagian MPDCG kena g bukit merah...ada bengkel exco2 mpd. Mule2 tu aku xnk pegi tp ketua dgn penolong setiap portfolio wajib g...aku terpaksa la pegi. Berat hati maa nk pegi...da la hari sabtu aku g escort tilawah kat engineering campus...blik pun lmbt...esknyer kena plak bgn awl nk g bukit merah...huhuhu...no weekend for me last weekend..

Apa yg aku nk citer ni psl program kitorg kat bukit merah...kitorg kena join 1 bengkel khas utk MPD semua desa kat USM. Mcm2 yg kitorg gained dr bengkel tu...mcmner nk wat proposal yg btl, mcmner nk wat surat rasmi...nk wat belanjawan...mcm2 lg la. Kira byk jugak la ilmu2 yg kitorg dpt dr bengkel tu. Tp apa yg penting...kami smua enjoy giler2 masa tu...bkn enjoy sbb bengkel (hehehe). Mknan da la byk...sedap2 lak tu...dgn desserts...lauk yg sedap2...mmg menyelerakan la. Masa mkn meja kami mmg pnuh dgn mknan...sorg amik desserts smpai 2-3 pinggan...ahaks (burul tol)...pastu MPDCG la yg berbaris paling depan nk amik mknan...bdk2 desa lain smua kat blkg pastu biler smpai turn diorg...mknan da ala2 tggl skit...muahaha. Da tu plak...kami ni mmg havoc...masa mkn pun riuh...ketawa2 la...meja lain senyap jer...tp kami...buat tmpt tu mcm kami yg punyer...muahaha.

Pastu,budak2 CG ni mmg giler kamera...pantang ada masa...(yg sesuai @ x sesuai)...msti nk snap gmbr...pantang nmpk tmpt cun2 skit...msti nk posing. Dlm laptop aku skrg ni ada beratus keping gmbr masa bengkel tu...jnuh nk tgk one by one...huhuhu. Kitorg mmg enjoy giler2 masa hari tu...smua jd giler2...ada jer bnda yg nk dijadikn bahan gurauan...tu yg kecoh jer meja mkn kami. Dalam bergurau tu...senior2 dgn junior2 sama naik...masing2 ala2 nk jd budak2 balik...bergurau senda. Ada lg yg best...masa balik mlm tu...kami menyanyi rmai2 dlm bus...riuh rendah jdnyer bus tu...nsib baik pakcik driver bus tu sporting...ahaks.

To be frank...I really misses those moments...hope I can repeat those moments over and over again...thinking how happy we are last sunday...how enjoyful the moments are...I really wish I can be there again...

raya...raya...raya (part 4 – raya bersama kawan2 )

Raya tahun ni best la...dpt raya rmai2 dgn kwn2 skolah aku masa raya ketiga. Raya tahun lps x dpt join sbb aku g beraye dgn family...sedih btl. Mcm biasa...umah aku jd tmpt berkumpul. Blh dikatakn rmai la jugak yg join...lbh kurang 17 org...ok la tu...tu pun bkn senang nk kumpulkn kwn2 aku tu...masing2 da bawak haluan sndr. Raya ni jer la masa yg kitorg ada utk berkumpul...masa2 lain susah nk kumpul2 mcm ni...smua org bz,bz dgn keje...study...mcm2 hal la...huhuhu. Raya ketiga tu mmg happy sbb dpt jumper kwn2 yg da lama amat x jumper...ada yg dr lps STPM bru dpt jumpa skrg...ada yg jumper kali terakhir masa raya tahun lps...raya tahun ni bru jumper blik. Kitorg pusing bukan setakat 1 kampung hari tu,tp 4 kampung kitorg pusing...dari pemandangan pokok kelapa & kelapa sawit pegi ke pemandangan sawah yg luas terbentang (ceh...ayat ala2 skema). Teringat mak si razis bgtau kitorg...igt kenangan raya rmai2 ni smpai biler2 sbb tahun dpn mungkin x dpt lg kumpul ramai2 mcm ni...ada yg da kawin pun tahun dpn...mcm best friend aku nor dgn nora. Si nora tu bln 12 ni da nk kawin. Syahdu jer rasa masa mak razis bgtau mcm tu...teringat kenangan kitorg raya ramai2 masa zaman2 persekolahan kitorg...especially masa form 5...blh dikatakan rmai yg ikut masa tu...mmg enjoy giler2 raya walaupun hakikatnyer masa tu kitorg tgh SPM...x hbis lg pun exam. Aku igt lg,masa tu kakak aku sruh bawak banner...tulis “BARAAN BUDAK2 X SEDAR DIRI”. Yerla...SPM x setel lg tp kitorg sibuk nk wat baraan. Tp baraan tu sebenarnyer 1 cara nk hilangkn tension pastu kitorg pk gak lps SPM masing2 ntah ke mana,susah nk jumpa...kira kumpul rmai2 wat kali terakhir la tu kononnyer. Padahal raya tahun depannyer wat baraan lg...kira mcm acara tahunan la...Cuma rmai atau x rmai jer. Tp yg aku dgr2 tahun ni tahun last kitorg wat baraan mcm ni...tahun dpn xder lagi...sedih lak rasanyer...huhuhu.
(ahli2 jemaah baraan raya ketiga:razis,napie,mat nor,pojan,fitry,beben,adam,iqbal,fazrul,solehin, fauzan rahman,balie,daus,taufiq,aku,nor,pojiah,dawi,nora,suhaidah)
Raya kelima kitorg g beraya umah cikgu sains pertanian kitorg,cikgu Faham...siap bg mkn sate lg...huhuhu. Da lama x jumper cikgu Faham...byk cerita dia. Then raya keenam g umah cikgu pengakap,cikgu ali amri...ayahanda kitorg tu...hehehe.
Kenangan raya ketiga mmg aku xnkn luperkn smpai biler2. Harap2 tahun depan ada lg dan harap2 rancangan utk wat reunion tahun dpn boleh berjalan sbb kitorg da jnji nk wat reunion tu 5 years after SPM. Masa tu kebanyakan kitorg da keje...harap2 blh buat...amin.