this is it...

Siang td lps hbis exam psiko...merdeka la hidup aku dr final exam utk sem 5 nih. Kali ni cpt lak aku hbis...slalunyer aku & coursemates aku antara golongan yg lmbt hbis exam. Merasa gak blik awl & membuatkn segelintir student yg blm hbis exam merasa jeles...muahaha. Esk pg aku bertolak blik kampung...x sabar rasanyer. Mcm da lama giler x blik...pdhal masa raya bkn x balik. Maybe disebabkn tekanan exam kot...tu yg rasa lama. Aku da rindu giler kat si aqif...mak aku...motor aku...hahaha.

Hbis sem 5 ni mksdnyer aku ada lg 1 sem jer nk study. Ada 1 sem jer lg utk aku mencipta kenangan2 terindah as a student. Sometimes I wonder...apa la yg aku buat skrg lau aku x further study?keje kot?ke kawin?(wakakaka...). Dlm pd x sabar nk blik kg...aku pun x sabar nk bukak sem 6...huhuhu. Anyway...to my friends...kak rehan, aida, roomate ku ina...sem dpn leh enjoy lg ek (jnji...dlm sem dpn lau korg ajak main...org try main...hehehe)...my coursemates...jijah, muni, kak lin, sal, tie, lydia, avinesh, sahida, zira, hui ping, dak kecik (pija), sue, qawiy & siva...igt...sem dpn lbh byk paper linguistic dr paper literature...xleh enjoy2...g kak bedah time tuto lg...huhuhu. Then, last but not least...all CGrian (hehehe)...sal, mimi, wati, sue, fiza, lisa, kusya...juniors (2nd year)...ewan, amin, halim, yan, syahid, nurul, ija, din nuar (and many more)...super juniors (1st year)...anip, wae, dali, hamdan, fiqri, hairi, faiz, iz, mat, bob, husrun, sairol, fida (and many more)...jumper lg sem dpn k...kita havoc kn lg CG nih...biar lbg meriah drpd biasa...yg g baktisiswa...kita jumpa 1hb...

SO LONG....AND GOOD BYE...

2012...

huhuhu...2012...filem yg mmg aku tggu2. Since aku dgn kak rehan tgk promo filem ni...kitorg trus msukkn dlm 'a must watch movie list'. Tgk promo jer da gempak...blm lg tgk full film. Filem ni mmg best la...effect yg diorg guna mmg btl2 dasyat...nmpk real btl laut yg mengganas...taman negara yg meletup...jln2 retak...pastu mcmner hero try slmtkn family dia g lalu jln yg retak tuh (tipikal la kn...). Aku salute btl dgn org yg wat special effect filem ni...nmpk sgt2 real. Tp 1 jer yg aku nk komen psl filem nih...filem ni actually bkn la ttg 'end of the world' atau 'hari kiamat'...tp pd kitorg lbh kpd film ttg bencana alam besar-besaran yg berlaku kat seluruh dunia akibat kelalaian manusia sndr yg x peka dgn apa yg da terjadi kat alam ni. Lau btl ttg 'end of the world' yg mcm puak Mayan ramalkn tuh...so...dunia ni hancur la...xder apa2 lg sg yg tggl. Tp dlm filem ni digambarkn mnusia yg dpt naik kapal yg dicipta khas tu selamat dan diorg membina tamadun bru kat ats kapal. Himalaya lak bkn puncak tertinggi lg...tp puncak tertinggi da pindah ke Afrika...hmmm...propa jer lbh. Apa pun...filem ni mmg sgt best pd pendapat aku. GSC kat Queensbay tu pun rmai giler td...smua nk tgk 2012...tiket pun cpt sold out...jgn kata yg ptg...yg midnight pun da sold out...huhuhu...enjoy

ku merindu...

aku rindu...

my childhood moments...

best btl masa tu...xpyh pk masalah...tau main jer...biler penat...stop main...biler lapar...mkn. Happy jer masa zaman kanak2...main dgn sepupu...main dgn jiran. Paling aku igt zaman kanak2 aku masa umur aku lbh krg 6 thn...arwah abah buatkn 1 pondok utk aku...besar la jugak. Kat situ la aku main masak2...main teddy bear pink aku...tido pun lau blh nk kat situ. Pastu, arwah abah besarkn skit pondok tu...so, lau cousins aku blik kg...blh main rmai2 kat pondok tuh...rindunyer masa tu...

aku rindu...

zaman sekolah rendah

ni la antara zaman yg paling best dlm hidup aku...blaja mengeja, membaca, mengira...knal kwn2 bru. Zaman skolah rendah aku lalui mcm kanak2 lain...ada geng sndr...ada aku, ina, hafizah, awek dgn fara. Kitorg mmg kamceng sjak darjah 1...g mana2 pun sama2. Tp, adat dlm berkawan la kn...tibe2 jer kitorg jd sgt renggang dgn ina & hafizah...gaduh bdk2 kecik...pastu masa darjah 6 jd ok blik...tp kali ni fara dgn awek wat group lain...aku, ina dgn hafizah pun wat group lain la...hehehe. Skrg...masing2 da terpisah...lau jumpa pun sekali sekala...nsib baik aku ni dua pupu ina...slalu la jugak jumpa...umah hafizah lak dekat dgn umah aku...sekali sekala g umah dia. Biler g umah hafizah ni, aku teringat blik masa kecik2 dlu slalu merayap umah dia sbb kat umah dia dlu ada buaian besar tuh (masa tu kat kg aku x rmai ada buaian mcm tu)...klaka biler pk...rindunyer SKPS (skolah lama aku)

aku rindu...

zaman sekolah menengah...

zaman yg paling berharga...sbb masa ni la aku knal apa itu PERSAHABATAN. Masa skolah menengah ni la aku knal dgn kwn2 rapat aku skrg...kwn yg aku knal sjak tadika lak (mcm best friend aku...nor) jd makin rapat. Walaupun skrg ni kitorg da jarang jumper...at least kitorg still contact each other. Masa skolah menengah la aku blaja erti hidup...erti sebuah perjuangan...erti kerjasama...mcm2 lg. Masa ni la aku knal apa itu cinta monyet (hahaha). Paling best masa aku form 4 & form 5...jd pengawas senior so, byk la keje kena wat...walaupun penat tp happy jer sbb enjoy masa wat keje. Dlm kelas lak masing2 da jd mcm adik beradik...rapat jer. Aku bgga giler dgn kelas aku...BERLIAN...kelas sains tulen...so org mcm pandang tggi la kat kitorg (erk~~mcm riak jer). Bkn bgga sbb kitorg bdk2 sains sebenarnyer...tp bgga sbb keakraban kitorg...x mcm kelas lain yg ada klik2 sndr. Kitorg ada klik...tp still rapat dgn geng lain. Blm citer psl pengakap...lg la best...mcm2 pengalaman aku dpt...sgt2 berharga...I will never ever forget that. Form 6 pun sama...walau da pindah sekolah lain...tp...byk bnda yg aku blaja. Aku blaja utk jd lbh tabah & kuat after saat yg wat aku rasa down sgt...

aku rindu...

keakraban aku dgn 'seseorang'...

biler aku kenangkn...biler aku igt2 blik...aku menangis. Aku dlu rapat sgt dgn 'dia'...tp lps peristiwa...kitorg jd renggang...aku xtau knp...nk kata aku x phm dia...aku la yg jd tmpt mengadu. Maybe dia sedar yg kitorg ni byk perbezaan...tp bkn ker perbezaan tu kdg2 wat kita jd lg rapat?sbb blh kongsi pendapat...ntah la. Rindunyer saat2 kitorg ketawa suka ria...kongsi masalah...tp smua tu...da hilang mcm tu jer...rindunyer...

aku rindu...

arwah abah...

hmmm...lau psl ni...mmg tiap2 masa aku rindu arwah abah. kdg2 kesedihan tu dtg tibe2...tanpa aku duga. Rindu nk naik moto dgn abah g keliling sawah...rindu nk ikut abah g kebun tanam jagung...rindu nk medang dgn abah lat tanjong...smua tu tggl kenangan jer...kenangan yg tersemat kukuh dlm ingatan aku...abah...adik rindu...

what a night...

"malam minggu yg lalu,bwk awek tgk citer hantu"

Hahaha...lagu tu lagu lama...tp lau sekali sekala dgr best gak. Anyway...aku bkn nk citer psl lagu tu...saper pencipta @ penyanyi dia...tp aku nk citer psl mlm mggu yg kitorg da lalui...bru jer td....hahaha.

Citer bermula biler kak rehan sejak pkul 9 p.m. lg dah ajak aku g mkn laksa kat tepi laut kat queensbay tu...laksa tu jual kat lori2 kecik tu jer....tp mmg sedap la laksa tu. So, dlm pkul 12 lbh...kitorg g queensbay...6 org naik 1 keter...kak rehan, aku, ewan, amin, halim & syahid...mcm tin sardin gak la...hak3. Then, aku nk g withdraw duit...ha...kat sini la bermula episod yg x brpe nk best...duit blh lak hbis kat machine ATM tu...ada 2 machine...dua2 blh lak hbis duit. So, aku pun g kuar jln2 dgn hnya ada RM7 dlm dompet. X ksah la, nk mkn kat tepi laut tu jer pun...bkn nk shoping. Smpai kat queensbay...dr jauh da nmpk lori pakcik laksa...kak rehan pun apa lg...g la parking keter btl2 dpn lori tu...tp mslhnyer...kak rehan slh tmpt. Lori pakcik laksa tu jauh lg ke depan...so, utk cover malu...kitorg jln2 la dlu...duduk kat tepi laut tu. Duk kat tepi laut ni pun ada peristiwa klaka. Ada la plak tikus yg dgn gembiranyer main kejar2 kat celah2 batu tmpt kitorg lepak tu...smpai ewan dgn amin cabut lari duk kat seat yg mmg ada kat situ...erk...takut tikus ker?hahaha...

Then, biler kitorg nk beli laksa tu...pakcik tu blh lak x dgr yg kak rehan nk laksa. Dia cuma bakarkn jagung yg aku nak jer...da la masin jagung tuh...x mcm yg aku mkn mggu lps...aduyai. Da duduk2 jap mkn jagung dgn bebola...kak rehan g beli laksa lak....layan jer laksa tu...sedap beb...walaupun pedas. Tgh sedap2 mkn laksa...ada la pulak pakcik POLIS dtg...sruh kitorg blik sbb da pkul 2...nk elakkn jenayah katanyer...aduyai. Kitorg pun pakat bgn...pdhal laksa blm hbis. Smpai kat keter kak rehan...tgk2 kak rehan kena saman sbb parking kat tepi jalan. Alamak...bala tul la...nsib baik la pakcik polis tu sgt baik hati...kak rehan blh setel kat situ terus...terima kasih yer pakcik. On the way blik lak...kitorg terserempak dgn mat2 rempit...kumpul kat tepi jalan...mmg rmai. Tkut gak...mana la tau buat hal ker...xker naya kitorg.

Mlm mggu ni mmg jd sejarah la dlm hidup aku...yer la...mana la prnh kena halau dgn polis masa tgh lpk2 mcm tu...slalu clear jer. Kak rehan lak...1st time dlm hidup dia kena saman...pengalaman tul. Tibe2 jer mlm ni aku dgn kak rehan jd "good girl gone bad" sekejap. Hahaha....

special poem...

"Portrait of a Friend"

I can't give solutions to all of life's problems, doubts, or fears.

But I can listen to you, and together we will search for answers.

I can't change your past with all it's heartache and pain,

nor the future with its untold stories.

But I can be there now when you need me to care.

I can't keep your feet from stumbling.

I can only offer my hand that you may grasp it and not fall.

Your joys, triumphs, successes, and happiness are not mine;

Yet I can share in your laughter.

Your decisions in life are not mine to make, nor to judge;

I can only support you, encourage you,

and help you when you ask.

I can't prevent you from falling away from friendship,

from your values, from me.

I can only pray for you, talk to you and wait for you.

I can't give you boundaries which I have determined for you,

But I can give you the room to change, room to grow,

room to be yourself.

I can't keep your heart from breaking and hurting,

But I can cry with you and help you pick up the pieces

and put them back in place.

I can't tell you who you are.

I can only love you and be your friend.

--Unknown--

I DON'T UNDERSTAND....

Entry kali ni I want to be a bit more serius....something about human that I don't understand that happens around us. There's a few things that most people don't understand why it happened to them. They will asked themself...'what did I do wrong that other people mess with me?'It's just a simple question, yet, no one can give the exact answer to the question.

1. I don't understand...how much is the value of friendship?
For me, the value of friendship is priceless...we can't buy our friendship in a shop or something. It is the gift that we should appreciate. Once we are friend...forever we are friend. But the thing that I don't understand is...why someone would break their friendship over some little silly things? Sbb hal yg org sekeliling rasa kecik jer...tp blh jd penyebab sebuah persahabatan yg dibina putus di tgh jln. Pdhal sblm things came up...slalu bersama...tp biler da jd bnda x elok...mula la mengata sana sini. Yg wat aku lg x phm...biler 1 pihak senyap jer...x wat apa2 pun...yg 1 lg mula la nk mencanang keburukan...mengata mcm2...perlu ke nk wat mcm tu? apa yg diorg dpt sebenarnyer?bkn ke itu menunjukkan betapa immatured dia tu? come on...we are grown up people...be like one. Jgn la childish sgt kn. Biler jd bnda x elok...susah la...lg2 biler org yg xtau apa2 lgsg citer dr awal...kn bg nama buruk jer. Dlm kes ni...org yg kena kutuk tu...ptut berdiam dr jer...lau lawan pun x guna...no point. Lau balas gak...jwbnyer huru hara la...silap2 blh bertumbuk...and that is the most last thing to happen on earth. I wonder...betapa murahnyer harga persahabatan pd org tu...masa org lain sgt2 perlukn kwn...yg jd pengubat suka duka...dia lak suka suki jer wat mcm tu. Aku tgk dia pun slalu sorg2...mcm xder kwn. Aku jd kesian kat dia...bkn sbb xder kwn...kesian sbb org mcm dia...yg org nmpk mcm sopan santun...rupanyer dangkal fikirannyer...nmpk matang...tp sgt childish. Rasanyer...dia xpyh ada kwn pun ok kot...sbb at the end...dia akan wat kwn dia sakit hati.

2. I don't understand...why people mess with us? We didn't do anything to them...
Ni satu lg sifat manusia yg aku x phm lgsg...biler pk2..hmm...hampeh jer org yg suka cari pasal nih. Org tu duk diam...x kacau dia pun...tp dia lak cari psl dgn org tu. Perlu ke wat smua tu? Mengata org yg xder kaitan lgsg...x phm la manusia mcm ni. Apa ek yg dia dpt biler cri psl mcm tu...mengata org yg x bersalah...yg xder apa2 kes pun dgn dia. I wonder...mcmner la org mcm ni...yg suka mess with other people...nk campur dgn org lain in the future. Lau org lain tau yg dia ni jnis mcm ni...org mmg xnk terlibat dgn dia...biaq pi dia hidup sorg2. Cari psl dgn org tu dah jd mcm satu keperluan hidup dia kot...mcm makan tido yg jd satu keperluan hidup manusia...mcm tu jugak la cari pasal dgn org tu da jd keperluan hidup dia. Maybe this type of people feel uncomfortable biler dia x cari pasal dgn org. Hmmm...x phm btl la. Bg aku...sbb suka cari pasal la dunia ni jd huru hara...mana taknyer...elok jer negara tu aman...tibe2...ada lak negara yg cri psl...g serang negara tuh...kn huru hara jdnyer...bkn ke tu namanyer negara yg menyerang tu sajer cari pasal...pelik2.

3. I don't understand...why people misused the network...
Ni pun bnda yg aku x phm...knp la org suka gunakan network yg ada kat dunia yg serba canggih ni utk wat bnda2 buruk. Question:what do they fet from it? Network yg ada tu sepatutnyer digunakn utk beneficial things...mcm sebarkn info berguna ke...tmbh kenalan ker...xpun reconnect dgn kawan yg da lama terpisah. Ni x...ada ke guna kemudahan teknologi tu utk mengutuk mengata...mengumpat mengeji org lain. Sgt tidak bertamadun org itu. Menampkkan betapa kurang berilmunyer manusia mcm ni...pdhal blaja tahap universiti. Bahasanyer pulak...sgt la kesat...yg org lain x jangka dtg dr seorang yg kelihatan sgt decent...sopan...bijak...pandai. Da la future teacher...malangnyer nasib bkl student dia besok. Network mcm Facebook cthnyer...kn dbina utk tambah kenalan...interact dgn org lain...dgn kwn2...tp knp la dia misused facebook tu utk kutuk2 org...sgt pndk akal...hmmm...manusia2

Above is just a few things that I don't understand why it happened. I will post many more entries about this topic in the future...just for my own reminder and others things that we should not do to live in peace...