a tale of...1 CLASS,2 DIFFERENT COURSES..

this is a tale of a class which consist of 2 different group of students...I will just call the group as THE FIRST GROUP & THE SECOND GROUP. Both of the group came from different school (pusat pengajian). It's just a simple tale actually...but it can sounds silly for other people. Both group have been in the same class since their first semester...then meet again during their third semester until now...fifith semester. THE SECOND GROUP is actually future teacher...and they are taking some of the courses from THE FIRST GROUP'S school. At first things look ok with both group...THE SECOND GROUP looks quite friendly but soon THE FIRST GROUP found out that THE SECOND GROUP says bad things about them...about things like the lecturer are bias towards them because they came from other school. Almost half of THE SECOND GROUP dislike THE FIRST GROUP student...God knows why they dislike THE FIRST GROUP student. For me they act like a child...I mean like you are university students...to add to that...APEX U students...should you have that kind of attitude? Be mature...you don't have to feel that the lecturer is bias towards you because they are not. If they do it's just because they care for THE FIRST GROUP more because they are the lecturer from THE FIRST GROUP'S school (but trust me...the lecturer are not bias). Yes, some of THE SECOND GROUP STUDENTS are nice towards THE FIRST GROUP students...but not all of them. Some might smile to THE FIRST GROUP students when they bumped into each other but it's like blh dikira dgn jari. Some even have each other's YM and can interract nicely. But again...most of them dislike THE FIRST GROUP STUDENT. Come on...you are future reacher...is that how a teacher should act...is that the value that you wants your student to follow?? If yes...there goes the educational institution. Grow up and act like you should act...act like a university students should act and be nice to others. If THE SECOND GROUP students have something that they are not satisfied with THE FIRST GROUP student...just tell them straight away...don't have to act like a child and says that the lecturer is bias. One more thing...what makes thing worse is the hatred is just around the MALAY students...hmmm smpai biler la nk maju mcm ni...

niat yang terpesong...

niat yang terpesong...msti smua org pernah mengalami keadaan mcm ni. Niat awal nk wat bnda lain...but end up wat bnda lain. Ever wonder kenapa niat someone blh terpesong? kalau niat terpesong ke arah yg lbh baik xper...tp lau terpesong ke arah yg tak baik...lain jdnyer. Naper niat kita blh terpesong? Sbb kita tibe2 jer rasa nk wat bnda lain atau sbb pengaruh dr org lain? For example...kita niat awl2 nk g library but end up ikut kawan g kedai. Tu xper lg kot...tp mcmner lau niat awl nk g majlis ilmu...but end up g shopping...mcmner nk kira tu? Apa2 pun...intention tu pntg...tnpa intention atau niat...apa2 pun x jalan. Nk minum...smua org ada intention nk minum...bkn la tibe2 jer kita capai air pastu minum. Tak kira la niat tu akan terpesong ker...teruskn niat awal ker...yg penting...niat.

By the way...hari ni niat aku mmg btl2 terpesong...muahaha...

realiti & mimpi...

realiti & mimpi...kedua2nya adalah perkara yg sgt2 berbeza. Kita selalu bermimpi...tak kira la mimpi indah atau mimpi buruk ataupun mimpi kita utk menggapai sesuatu. Tp kita hidup dlm alam realiti & bkn alam mimpi. Ada org beranggapan yg mereka sggp hidup dlm alam mimpi sbb bg mereka mimpi itu indah dan takkan mengecewakan mereka especially if it was a beatiful dream. Tp mereka tak sedar sesuatu...mimpi tu blh menyebabkn mereka kecewa kerana mimpi tak selamanyer indah. To make things worse...when they woke up from their dreams and realise that they have to live in reality.

Realiti tu lebih baik dr mimpi. Walaupun tak semua org rasa mcm tu...they have to accept the fact that we live in a real world. Org2 yg rasa mimpi tu lebih baik dr realiti...for me...they are coward...mrk x brni utk menempuhi alam realiti yg byk cabaran. These type of people should wake up from their dream and live in the real world. Mereka x blh trus hidup dlm mimpi & angan2 ciptaan mereka sndr...smpai biler nk hidup dlm angan2. Let say for example...we want the world to live in peace...no war...no poverty...people live in harmonious life and the world is a better place to live...but if we only have the courage to dream of it without the courage to do something about it...it is useless. we can dream that there will be no more war...no more little children who live in miserable life but if we did not act and not brave enough to change it...there's no use. Impian tu hanya tggl impian and the world will never change.

Dare to dream...and dare to act to make your dreams come true...

pg yg mendamaikan....(ker??)

huhuhu....da start pun mggu bru dlm diari hdp aku sbg student...da msuk mggu ke-4. Blm mula bz...tp hmpir2 nk bz...ada asgmnt kena submit in the next 2 week.

tenang btl aku rasa pg ni...well...mmg ada gangguan bunyi mesin rumput...tp suasana pg yg redup pastu angin yg ala2 sepoi2 bahasa...mmg rasa damai jer suasana...kn best lau suasana mcm ni kekal smpai ptg nnt...xder la penat sgt g class...dgn panasnyer...kena g naik bukit lak tu...huhuhu...

mggu lps...byk class yg cancel...mula dgn class psikologi kesihatan yg separuh jln sbb lecturer x jumper cd...pastu hr rabu lak class malaysian literature yg separuh jln gak sbb lecturer x sihat...rabu mlm tu s'pttnyer ada class psiko kesihatan...tp bru nk naik bukit g class...ada org inform yg class cancel...huh...wat penat aku jer kelam kabut masa nk g class. Then, hari khamis...dpt info yg class hr tu delay for 1 hour...lecturer x sihat gak...so...g breakfast...pkul 10 msuk class...tp...cancel trus...hmmm...pnat jer tggu.

mggu lps gak mggu aku kuar jln2. Hari2 lak tu. Isnin dgn selasa g BJ...rabu g Sg Nibong bli tiket...khamis tgk wayang kat Queensbay...jumaat g BJ lg...sabtu g pasar malam...ahad g Komtar....hehehe. Biler lg nk kuar kn...nnt msg2 da bz...susah nk kuar sama2...huhuhu. Harap2 mggu ni xder kuar jln2 lg...save budget...ahaks...

kerinduan...

huhuhu...xleh tido lak mlm ni...nsib baik class pkul 11...lau x...maunyer aku gam mata aku nih. Rasa sunyi mlm2 mcm ni wat aku rasa rindu sgt2 kat arwah abah...sedar x sedar da 8 thn abah tgglkn kitorg smua...igt lg tarikh tu...14 Julai 2001. Mmg aku xkn luper saat2 tu...aku rasa mcm separuh nyawa aku terbang biler aku sndr yg ckp kat mak yg abah da xder...abah meninggal btl2 depan mata aku sndr...masa aku still pegang tgn abah. Pagi tu...lbh krg pkul 3 pg...abah pengsan...abah mmg kerap pengsan dlm 2-3 mggu...doktor ckp sbb krg gula. So,smntara tggu mak wat air gula...aku bg abah sandar kat aku...dlm keadaan separuh sedar...abah minum air gula tu...mula2 nmpk mcm ok...da blh ckp2 mcm biasa...tp jap jer...lps tu...abah mula pergi tgglkn kitorg...aku sndr yg rasa nadi abah masa tu. Mule2 aku sedapkn hati...yakinkn diri sndr yg abah ada lg...tp lps tu aku mula terima hakikat yg abah da xder...dan aku bgtau mak. Biler aku call kakak yg masa tu posting kat JB...dia tau abah da xder coz aku xkn call pkul 3 pg lau xder apa2...abg lak x blh dihubungi...so terpaksa mntk sepupu aku..ijat g umah abg bgtau. Hancur hati abg biler dpt berita tu sbb abg bru ckp dgn abah lps isyak sblm tu. Pkul 6.30 abg da smpai umah. Masa abg smpai...aku nangis semahunya kat pelukan abg. Kakak lak...sggp sewa teksi dr JB blik kg...nsib baik housemate dia sggp temankan...tp x sempat pun nk tatap arwah abah sbb masa da suntuk. Kakak trus terduduk kat tgga umah...kesal x dpt tgk abah wat kali terakhir...smua tu masih terbayang2 kat mata aku...mcm tayangan filem. Kdg2 aku mcm x percaya yg abah da xder...kn best lau abah ada masa aku msuk u...masa aku konvo...masa aku mencapai kejayaan2 lain...tp aku sgt2 sedar yg smua tu mustahil...abah pergi xkn kembali lg...tp tetap dlm ingatan kitorg. Kdg2 aku menangis sorg2 biler teringat kat abah...tp xprnh bgtau mak...aku xnk mak susah hati...biar la aku pendam sndr...abah...adik rindu abah...

Al-Fatihah utk arwah abah...

kenangan...

Sem 5 bru jer mula...mknanyer aku da msuk final year. Pejam celik aku da nk hbis study (insyaALLAH)...feels like yesterday aku msuk USM...sedar2 aku da ada 2 junior...mmg cpt masa berlalu. Sepanjang 4 sem yg lps...mmg byk memori yg tercipta kat USM nih...gurau senda...ketawa & menangis...smua ada. Mmg kenangan tu smua x dpt dilupakan.
Tp,bg aku kenangan yg terindah tercipta masa aku sem 4...mcm2 kenangan tercipta. Masuk TOT...penyelaras CG FUN HOUSE...dan yg plg penting skli...CITRAWARNA. Aku x prnh sangka yg aku blh menari (walaupun kayu)...mcm x percaya jer. Biler tgk blik video kitorg smua menari...mcm2 feeling ada...kelakar sbb aku x prnh reti menari pastu blh lak join CITRAWARNA nih...kelakar tgk dress & make up kitorg...mcm opera cina...tp lain dr yg lain. Ada gak rasa sedih sbb rindu sgt2 dgn kenangan join CITRAWARNA. Latihan smpai tgh2 mlm...ketawa bengong2...sembang2...pastu enjoy masa bertanding...really2 miss those moment...will it ever happen again? yeah...it will happen again...but will never be the same...

THE CLIMB...

I can almost see it...That dream I’m dreaming but there’s a voice inside my head saying...You’ll never reach it...Every step I’m taking...Every move I make feels lost with no direction...My faith is shaking but I got to keep trying...Got to keep my head held high...
There’s always going to be another mountain...I’m always going to want to make it move...Always going to be an uphill battle...Sometimes I’m gonna to have to lose...Ain’t about how fast I get there...Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side... It’s THE CLIMB...
The struggles I’m facing...The chances I’m taking...Sometimes might knocked me down but no I’m not breaking...I may not know it...But these are the moments that I’m going to remember most...Just to keep going on and I...I got to be strong...Just keep pushing on...
Keep on moving...Keep climbing...Keep the faith...It’s all about...THE CLIMB...Keep the faith...Keep your faith

Lagu kat atas ni penyanyi dia Miley Cyrus...aku suka sgt lagu ni sbb lagu ni ada makna yg sgt mendalam...wat aku sedar yg kejayaan kita x dtg bergolek...kita kena berusaha utk mencapai kejayaan tu. Dan sebenarnyer...apa2 kejayaan yg kita dpt tu x bermakna lau bkn kita sndr yg berusaha. Kejayaan tu...dtg dan pergi. Lagu kat atas tu cuba bgtau kita yg bkn brpe byk kejayaan yg kita dpt tu jd ukuran...tp perjalanan kita nk dptkn kejayaan tu yg bermakna utk kita. Utk mencapai sebuah kejayaan...kita kena menempuhi byk halangan...berdepan mslh...dan mcmner kita handle halangan dan mslh tu la yg menjadikan kejayaan kita bermkna. Itu la mksd THE CLIMB...it’s all about our journey to success. Pengalaman yg kita dpt tu la yg membuatkan kita lbh menghargai kejayaan kita...dan mematangkan kita jgk sebenarnyer...

best in me...

"you bring out the best in me...like no one else could do"
1 baris lagu dr kmpln BLUE...BEST IN ME...aku suker lagu tu coz dia lagu tu ditujukan utk si kekasih hati yg telah menyebabkn dia memberikan yg terbaik dlm setiap apa yg dilakukan...bertuahnya lau ada kekasih hati mcm tu kn...

For me...the person that bring out the best in me is mak...lps arwah abah meninggal...aku blaja utk x jd anak manja lg...masa abah ada aku mmg manja dgn abah...tp aku kena buang sifat manja tu biler abah da xder. Aku kena kuatkn diri utk mak sbb aku xnk mak igt aku x kuat semangat lg lps abah meninggal. So...mak la yg bring out the best in me sbb aku nk prove kat family aku yg aku bkn lg adik yg manja yg sentiasa bergantung kat diorg. Mak slalu sruh aku kuatkn semangat & apapun yg terjadi mak sentiasa ada kat sisi aku. Demi mak aku sggp wat keje2 yg a 15 year old girl xnk wat...aku sggp wat keje2 berat kat umah semata2 xnk bg mak susah hati. Demi mak jugak aku berusaha kuat utk masuk u. Aku tau agak susah utk mak lpskn aku blaja jauh2...aku tau mak sentiasa susah hati fikirkn aku kat tmpt org...sbb tu aku kena bg mak yg terbaik so apa yg mak rasa selama ni...susah hati...risau...rindu...sunyi biler aku xder pay off. Aku nk berjaya demi mak...sbb mak la insan yg btl2 bring out the best in me selama ni...terima kasih mak...

reason...

I believe things happen for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you can appreciate them when they are right, you believe in lies so you eventually start to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart, so better things can fall together.

L.O.V.E

L – last forever
O – often hurts, but always makes us happy
V – very complicated, but sometimes, love makes everything easy
E – essential of life

SAKIT HATI....

Aku pasti smua org kat dunia ni pernah rasa sakit hati...even someone yg orang anggap sbg baik hati pun akan ada rasa sakit hati bila da tak tahan sgt. Apa yg wat kita sakit hati? Well...there are a million reasons for us to feel sakit hati...sakit hati sbb org yg kita x suka dpt lbh dr apa yg kita dpt...sakit hati sbb org yg kita suka sebenarnyer da berpunyer walaupun dia bgtau kita dia still single...sakit hati sbb org lain mungkir janji kat kita dan mcm2 sbb lg. But at the end of the day...kita rasa sgt sakit hati biler org yg wat kita sakit hati tu adalah org yg rapat dgn kita dan kita sayang org tu...contohnya...kawan baik yg mungkir janji....pernah rasa mcm tu??